I started my classes for graphic art. I wonder how I would have done in school if all classes were online. I like that no one can hear me cursing, and that I can go back over sections as many times as I need to. I could tell if I were in a real class, I would get snagged on something-- meanwhile, the teacher and the rest of the class would barrel ahead, and I'd soon be hopelessly lost (a familiar scenario from umpteen failed math attempts) (See? *umpteen* is not a real number yet here I am using it. That is how remote math is to me.)
I suspect if I'd taken high school online, I'd still not exactly have set the world on fire, because for me to learn something I have to actually be interested in it. And the fact that I'm required to take a class does not compel me. But this (computer graphics) IS something I'm interested in, so even though it is confusing I'm very determined to learn it. I'm gonna learn it so hard you guys... Just wait.
Here is the princess pic I began fooling with months ago. I haven't had time to work on this stuff again until recently. I had actually gotten much farther on her, just experimenting around blindly-- She had a bunch of stars in her hair, and her eyes had been re-done and were way more realistic, but that was before i knew about saving your work every time you turn around so it crashed once and erased all my progress. The coloring was just something I was fooling with yesterday. I don't get it yet, and am not satisfied with how it looks. Learning = experimenting.
One thing I haven't figured out yet is how come the computer doesn't get where the color should stop. See the left-most hair? The color is stopping where my drawn lines end, instead of filling in all the negative space. Oh well, this is all stuff I haven't gotten to yet in the classes. I'm just trying to figure out what I can. It's very engrossing. I think about it when I'm not doing it, and even dream about it.
I decided I'm going to get rid of all my stained glass stuff, if anyone is interested. I have all kinds of glass, and chemicals, and leading. It's going on craig's list, so, let me know if anyone out there wants it. This is the kind of decision I've had to make about my art this year--- what realistically am I going to continue doing? How is my time really best spent both from a creatively satisfying standpoint, as well as a financially reasonable one. The glass stuff just didn't make the cut.
I think making conscious choices about stuff like this is super important. You can't say yes to everything. There is a common analogy out there among young moms, that talks about "putting the oxygen mask on yourself first" in an airline emergency-- the message being-- "save yourself first, so you can be there to save the others." This applies to everyone's life.
You have to decide, that you are going to come first. This sounds horribly selfish to most people at first, and of course it can be taken to extremes and abused, but just listen. I've had to figure a lot of this stuff out because of doing art, and even addiction recovery. In art it's the old "take care of the goose that lays the golden eggs" thing, with addiction, it's an important choice-- to fight for yourself and the life you want.
Once you get that, you can divide your life into segments-- important ones, like the time you will put into relationships, helping others, working on your primary relationship/s (family/spouse), handling your career, playing.
It's not about your life being non-stop fun. For me knowing that I've made taking care of myself a priority (so that a more healthy, whole me exists to be there for everyone else in my life) and feeling like I am the one who adjusts the sliders, makes even the *work* or harder parts of my life feel okay. :) Hope this makes sense and maybe helps someone.